I wonder if I will ever be able to love one man for my entire life, not that I am very proud of this fact but it seems like a truth which I will have to live with. I meet many people and I seem to fall in love with each of them for a different reason. Does that make me a terrible person? A person with no morals or ethics? I don’t think so, but I can’t help falling in love either.

 

I met you a few days ago, and there was this instant connection. It was almost like I was talking to a mirror; you seemed to know me so well and said all the right things at the right time. It would be extremely presumptuous/ bold of me to think that I am in love with you, but there is something, which I know is special. Maybe it will last not more than a few months, maybe just a few days, but why bother thinking about it now. I am happy to be living this moment and it feels more than just special. What makes it even more adventurous is the fact that we know absolutely nothing about each other, no past, no nothing. What we know is what we see now, of each other.

 

Then there is you, oh, you are a story to be told for sure, if I ever get down to writing a book then you will most certainly be given a chapter. You are a class apart from everyone else I know. You are ‘almost’ the dream man I had pictured I would marry someday. Brilliance and arrogance forms an integral part of who you are, you call a sword a sword and have no qualms about making your opinions, no matter how strong known to all. I am in awe of you, in awe of the way in which you live your life and handle everything that comes your way. I doubt if anyone has ever left such an impact on me, I seem to be talking about you constantly, smile when I hear others praise you and the work you do and feel I have personally achieved something spectacular when you achieve something. You make me want to work hard, to ensure that I become or atleast strive to become the perfectionist that you are.

 

My story would be incomplete if I did not talk about you…… you are the reason I allow my heart to think and take decisions, I don’t know if that is good or bad but I do know that it makes me happy. You were everything that I didn’t want in life and yet, there I was, with you, happy and completely oblivious to everything around me. My sole aim and motivation in life was to ensure that you wake up every morning with a smile on your face, and maybe to a great extent I also succeeded. The small things in life I appreciate because of you, the rain, the little orchid I see growing there, the algae even maybe…. You made me believe in love and for that I will forever be grateful.

 

I know I will be cheating myself if I leave you out. Friends, best friends, soul mates and so on….. we have been given a million tags by everyone we know. I have been told that marrying you will be the wisest thing I will do in all my life and yet I know I cannot afford to spoil what we have going. Not a day goes by without me talking to you, not a day goes by when I do not think of the all fun we had while in college together, all the fights we had and all the times I have just yelled at you and told you that I will never talk to you again. And yet, five years later not a day goes by when I do not talk to you. There is no denying that there is love we share, but does this have to mean that I should marry you or that I should be your girlfriend. Why cannot I say “I Love You” without having to think that it would mean and imply that I want you to marry me? I’ve known you for long and I know for a fact that I will continue knowing you and loving you all my life.